trust vs. mistrust
POSTED AT 07:33 AM

AnGeLiE

as erikson puts it, when consistency and love is present in early childhood, we might as well bet that the kid grows up to be well-rounded, nurturing and loving..

but the absence of such turns us to the opposite..

so therefore i might as well conclude that i don't know what to make of me..

hehehe

note: this is me. trying to give u a dry joke. hehe just very drained today. i got so effed up with school.

mga poem ni panyang..
POSTED AT 12:24 AM

AnGeLiE

friday night

mercury rising.
every touch effervescent.
every thrust unnerving.
dripping.
oozing.
every single breath
a struggle.
shuddering in lustful silence.

-gel '06

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daydream

sleepy girl.
dozing off with
thoughts of halfscreen.
intoxicated.
his junkie smile.
though fleeting.
nonsensically arousing.

-gel '06

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of facts and fiction

steps lead to death.
a fact.
breathing and the lack of it.
infarction.
still a fact.
you and me.
not a fact.
not even quite fiction.
not even close to that.

-gel '06

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smoke #3

brown eyes.
staring, lusting over sense.
wondering.
if tomorrow comes daylight.
puffing thoughts.
as nicotine sets in.

-gel ' 06

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limbo

altruism's best
has caught me.
holding me back.
destination.
quite hazy.
handing me
unwanted comfort.
sharing evaded wishes.

-gel '06

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#5

almond-shaped windows.
bucked pearlies.
puggish smelling thing.
pale overcoat.
junkie smirk.
criminal phalanges.
evil self.

-gel '06

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09262052***

f**cking for
f**cking's sake.
Thrusting for
thrusting's sake.
loving?
for who's sake?
not for f**cking.
not for thrusting.
not even for love's.
but for
yours.
who's
a f**cking fake!

-gel '06

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4:52

Running towards this brink.
insanity,
they call it.
i wear this tangible smile.
this infallible mask.
i knew they'd all fall for it.
fools,
they are.
i say.
and i,
the greater doer of folly.

-gel '06

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out in the cold
from that
warm, fuzzy bubble.
it used to be our world.
here, i puff.
to keep me warm.
but every puff,
designed
to deceive you.
because
in this stark,
lonely winter,
lies a blistered heart.

-gel '06

hahaha taya kantaha
POSTED AT 08:31 AM

AnGeLiE

bakakon ka! liar! evil ka!

bakakon ka! liar! evil ka!

bakakon ka! liar! evil ka!

bakakon ka! liar! evil ka!

POSTED AT 08:20 AM

AnGeLiE

atop a cliff
the stillness of the sea affects me

every light ripple
a tidal wave

washing away
wishes of dreamer

humana..
POSTED AT 09:57 PM

AnGeLiE

humana. wa na. mana storya. ambot wa ko kbaw unsay bati-on sa amo gpangstorya. wa na gyud. nya wa pa mi magkta balik. nya inig kta namo ky ambot lang kaha. dba ingon ko "i wish i know how to quit u?". ay mana gyud. quit na gyud. saon ta man. lahig mga points of view. wa man sad dangatan. gusto ko maglagot. pero d nalang. kapoy ra a! pero piste ghapon. ngano magsuko suko man ko na wa man gani to maghunahuna ang buang. kng isog sha, ay mas labaw pa ko. utot nya. mao ra ghapon. iya ning sala. cya gyud akng gbasol. ambot btaw. pis, lab, en rak enrol nalang ta.